Made It Past Day 1 Yet?

The answer to that question would be a big old NO!

I decided to enjoy all of the baked goodies and candies that we made for the holiday, and Christmas Dinner…don’t even get me started.

Was it a good decision? Again, NO it was not.

Today I feel puffy, bloated, achy joints, and the dreaded not being able to breath when I try to bend over and tie my shoes because my jeans are way too tight. Then of course, the itchy stomach and love handles that have been constrained in those tight jeans for far too many hours and now have indents from every seem and fold in said tight jeans. Yet again a reminder that “enjoying” those baked goodies and poor but tasty food choices throughout the past few weeks was a horrible idea and personally NOT WORTH IT!

So, here I sit again, typing in my journal about how I am still not able to get back on track to a healthier lifestyle.

Which brings up yet another point: It’s not only how my body feels so crappy but it is also hard to look at my naked self. I don’t like looking like a mascot for a tire company with all my spare tires and saggyness.

FYI, TMI Ahead: After I had lost a good amount of weight (over 2 years ago) I was comfortable in my skin and clothes. Being naked (around home) was comfortable and sleeping naked had many benefits (wink, wink). Now, I definitely do NOT walk around or sleep naked. I am clothed from neck to knees. “The sweatpants are tied”, as my husband likes to say. I want to get back to being comfortable naked and also back to the smokin’ hot sex life we had when we were thinner. They say you need a “why”, maybe that should be mine? 😊

Here’s to tomorrow, another Day 1.

❇️ Please send me some positivity in the comments (comment button is up under the title to this post), I can use all the support and good vibes that you would like to share. ❇️

xoxo ~ K

The Scale Keeps Moving UP

I have “tried” to start for the past 2 days. It hasn’t gone well. To the point that I spent 1 evening designing templates to follow other “diets”. I had convinced myself that the plan I usually follow was not sustainable and that I needed to follow a “real” food way of eating.

I obviously need the structure of the eating plan that I have lost weight on in the past. I don’t think I am ready to make healthy food choices from “regular” food yet (there are so many choices). I’ve been trying that for the past month and gained weight instead of losing it. But, that is all on me and my poor food and drink choices.

I have followed many fad diets and plans and have to admit that they all work when I follow them. I want to get back to “real” food but I just don’t make the best choices. I have decided to return to the one program that actually worked long term for me (3 years). Why did it stop working? It didn’t, I did. I stopped following the guidance that was laid out for me for the maintenance program. I started eating everything in great quantities simply because it had been so easy to maintain a weight loss for so long. Those quantities have caught up to me, to the tune of 25 pounds.

25 POUNDS!!!

I definitely went well beyond my comfort zone in gaining a “few” pounds.

I am now very uncomfortable and I believe it is affecting my health. My joints are achy from the inflammation of all the sugar, and I must believe that inflammation does not stop at my joints.

So, here I am again, at Day 1. Will I make it all the way through? It’s only 9:43a.m. and the Christmas goodies are still on the counter. For the past 2 days, I have caved into the “gotta have them since they only come around once a year” syndrome. Today will be different! At least that is the plan.

I am struggling this time to get back into the swing of things but I must do it!

❇️ Please send me some positivity in the comments (comment button is up under the title to this post), I can use all the support and good vibes that you would like to share. ❇️

xoxo ~ K